The school year is winding down, with just a couple of days left before summer vacation begins for the kids. They are beyond excited to start their break. I, on the other hand, am a little bit less excited. Summer is always a time to scramble. There are new schedules with camp and work, and I never feel fully settled in the summer. Every weekend is jam packed with happenings and parties, and there just seems to be a never ending stream of things to do. As someone who probably needs to minimize her to do list, the summer seems daunting.
But of course, I took on more, instead of less.
Our new fridge got delivered, and not a moment too soon for me. Using a bar fridge for a week wasn’t quite fulfilling what we needed, and I must admit I was excited for a new fridge. Our old one was a dinosaur, and the handles had even broken off. The new fridge is vast and bright, full of possibilities of future meals that I likely won’t have time to cook. In order to get the fridge in, we had to shuffle stuff around, so now the house appears more cluttered than ever. My yard looks like a rainforest jungle out there. Yesterday I was outside until 8:30 mowing, tidying, and trying to get things better in the yard. There is still hours upon hours of work left to do. With all of the work that needs to be done (and the short few hours I have to do it in), one would think I’d be saying no. Instead, I have been saying yes.
The year of yes was a good year.
In prior blog posts, I wrote about living the “yes” life, where I tried to say yes more, to do more. It was chaotic, but looking back, it was a happy year of new adventures. While I said recently I need to say “no” more to live a more simplistic life, I’ve found that sometimes, I have to slip back to yes.
Our school is going through MAJOR changes, changes that were made by the BOE that many parents disagree with. It effectively means that our PTA got decimated, and they needed to appoint and almost entirely new board. Our school community has been ripped apart, and we need to come together to build a community again. Somehow, and I’m not exactly sure how it happened, but my name got thrown into the mix. Me, who doesn’t go to math night (My kids don’t need to know they are smarter than me just yet), who struggles to make it to events and who is openly and almost proudly in a state of perpetual chaos. Someone, or some folks, apparently feel I’d be a good choice. So, onto the board I go, if voted in tomorrow. Part of me is scared shitless, and part of me is hopeful I can make a positive difference. Part of me wonders how the heck I’m going to manage such a big responsibility. Part of me is honored I have been considered and therefore wants to give it my very best shot. I think I’m always happiest when I can make a positive difference. I find out tomorrow if it’s official, but I’d be amiss if I said I wasn’t nervous about the outcome either way.
Some other “yes” decisions….
Yes to having my daughter live an old fashioned summer. A summer of playing outside, some boredom, and learning to overcome that boredom with imagination, friends, and summertime freedom.
Yes to going home to England for my cousin’s 40th. She’s the closest I had to a sister growing up, and if she wants me there, there I shall be.
Yes to being more of a free range parent. It has been a perpetual concern to me that my kids don’t get the benefits and responsibility of going outside and hanging with the neighborhood kids like I used to. I would get home from school, hammer out my homework, and then outside I went until the streetlights came on. I got my son a new bike, have been working on teaching the kids road safety, and now they are often found outside playing with neighborhood kids or riding bikes. I am lightening the reigns and letting them just be. I noticed a greater sense of awareness in them and an appreciation of simple time outside.
Yes to teaching the little one how to ride a two wheeled bike without training wheels.
Yes to being more social and being more outgoing.
Yes to being a bigger voice at the school and making it the best place possible.
Yes to being outside more. I want to spend my nights outside and relaxed in the fresh air.
I’m probably crazy, but you already knew that.