Trust is a funny thing. I’ve always been too trusting, for the most part. I always assume (often incorrectly) that people are inherently good. It seemed like a no brainer that people who didn’t like me would stay far away, and people who were around were my friends. It makes sense to me that we’re all on the Earth together, and for the most part, should be able to get along and trust each other to do the right thing as humans in general. I assumed that people were good.
You know what? I assumed wrong.
The level of asshol-y behavior I have borne witness to this year has been astonishing. I learned that a good chunk of people simply can’t be trusted, and are out for themselves. I learned that people will lie, cheat, steal and bullshit you to get, take and do what they want. It’s the most disheartening, frightening thing ever. It used to be just politicians. Now there’s an epidemic of them…people who will do and say what it takes to get what they want.
It’s the week of Christmas. When I grew up, this was the week where people tried to be a little better. A little kinder. A little more helpful to their fellow man. The time leading to the holidays was when you would see people shine, and you’d witness the best of them.
This year, I found out 11 cars in my neighborhood were stolen or robbed. The neighborhood police substation had all the toys for kids stolen. Packages are being stolen off porches. It’s friggen disheartening. People are lying, cheating, back stabbing. People are stealing toys from little children. Who are these monsters, and who is raising them? How have we become a society where we are raising such self entitled and self absorbed people that feel they can do these things to other with no consequence? Where has society gone wrong? This isn’t about politics and all that bullshit. It’s about a society who is raising people who need to be removed from society. We are no longer bringing up people who will better our situation. What we have are people who are tearing it down. We have people who lack compassion, and empathy, and kindness. We have people who will look you in the eye with a smile and a hug, and stab you in the back while you are in their embrace.
I’m afraid. I am afraid for my family, my kids, myself, my neighbors and my society. I don’t feel safe living amongst the monsters any more. I am trying hard to fight evil with kindness. To stay positive and stay afloat in a sea of heaviness. It’s exhausting. I am trying to stay positive, but each day I hear that another neighbor had their cars stolen. This is in a neighborhood that was quiet and had little to no problems for years. All I can do is keep my eyes out for them. To friend them.
Sometimes I wonder if the world is getting worse, or if we just know now how bad it is, thanks to social media and the internet. Good news travels fast, but bad news will always win the race.
But for now, I am circling my wagons. I don’t know who to trust, or why I should bother trusting in the first place. It’s a scary feeling, but it’s all I can do…that, and hope for a better new year.